Energy

Starting over takes energy. Lots of it. Sometimes I wonder where I get it from. Starting over is sometimes like ripping off a scab and other times like being let out of a cage. Either way, the energy that it takes to get to that point where you are ready to start over can seem impossible to muster. Starting over isn't easy but nothing in life worth having is. 

Today I am worrying about my kids. They don't need to start over. They already have. They need to continue building and moving forward. Hopefully nothing will drag them down but if something does, I will put on my supermom cape and save the day-or at least try.

I feel like my role in their lives is to be like base in a game of tag. As long as you are touching me, nothing can touch you. I think that's the reason why tag is for little kids. You have to be young and stupid to believe that touching an inanimate object protects you with an invisible force field. Although I can sort of protect them now, I know that there are things that can hurt them that I can't do anything about. 

So I think that I have given them a gift that may protect them way more than base if they are tagged and have to be "it". I have taught them that no matter what happens, you need to keep moving forward. That doesn't mean pretending that you don't feel things or burying things that need to be dealt with. It just means that every experience in this life can be used to create positive movement. 

My grandmother used to have an expression, "Put a little rouge on, and go out with a smile on your face".

I'm smiling grandma, with Purr lipgloss on....